| well i put so much thought into getting ready
and now i know that was the best part
it's so easy to get caught up in what i'm regretting
forget what i got from a wounded heart
i'm the one who likes gardenia
i'm the one who likes to make love on the floor
i don't want to hang up the phone yet
it's been good getting to know me more
i've been seeing all my old friends in the city
and walking alone in central park
doing all the things that are neglected
i traded them all in to be in your arms
well i hear my own voice, sounds so silly
keep on telling my story all around
everything i lost seems so different
well, this is how everybody gets found
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| i miss:
jonathan, as always. my kitty. junior year of high school. mom making me breakfast. how my stepdad cleans off my car at home. my ceiling fan. my high school cheering loves. my chs cheering uniform. my cheer shoes from junior year (where are those?). the quilt i made for myself. hardwod floors. not wearing flip flops in the shower. a working computer . tim hortons right down the road. cindy's sub shop. noyes flower and plant shoppe. zoe. how our walmart isn't such a clusterfuck like the one in bangor. being home with my family. my gram's chicken stew. how mom makes spaghetti for me like 5 times out of the week because i looooooove it. not having to carry my laundry down 5 flights of stairs. always having a guaranteed parking space. not having to actually study.
i can't wait for:
moving into our apartment on june 1st, even if it means leaving people i love at home. kittens. feeling that much more grown up, and knowing i got their on my own. possibly getting financial aid this year, finally. christmas. giving people their christmas presents. this semester to be over. erin to visit after christmas, and for us to go up to madtown. to see jon in less than a week. and be home for almost a month with him and my family (though its bittersweet to be away from here..) to see what i get for christmas...i hate surprises. for our remote to work with the dvd playet. finals to be over. the atmostphere of chs basketball games. visiting my cheering loves. bowling with the boys. my computer to stop being a dinkhead. my cosmos to actually start showing up in the mail. to understand where my life is heading.
might start bringing these back. it never fails to brighten my day when i go back and read these... i love who i used to be. not that i've changed so much though. then i didn't care about figuring out who i was supposed to be. now that and money stresses me out every single moment of my life.
and with that, i'm going to bed... LAST classes before finals of the semester when i wake up :)
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| work work work work work
i sense a never ending trend...
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| life
school
two year anniversary
dorm room
roommate
umaine cheering
poor
life
update soon, maybe
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